this is me now

lately i'm wondering blind life keeps on passing me by i catch myself in the eye like who the hell is that guy i've got deeper lines on my face, like i'm getting further away my old familiar ways don't serve me the same tryna rewire my brain again i guess this is me now this is me now i guess this is me now i guess this is me now this is me who am i gonna be now? well we all wanna be loved, so somebody give me a hug tell me that i am enough don't try so hard each hour of every day it's a transitional phase well i'm sick of carrying shame so tight, but i guess this is me now this is me oh i guess this is me now i guess this is me now this is me who am i gonna be now? mmm i guess this is me now this is me oh i guess this is me now i guess this is me now this is me who am i gonna be now? who am i gonna be now? and i'm worrying worrying and the future is troubling then i'm home again and i'm rushing i'm hurrying and my head is all muddling then i'm home again and i hate that i'm struggling and it's building it's bubbling and i'm tired of numbing it and i'm scared that i'm fucking it then i'm hooooooooome again i guess this is me now this is me oh i guess this is me now i guess this is me now this is me who am i gonna be now who am i gonna be now this is me oh i guess this is me now i guess this is me now this is me who am i gonna be now? who am i gonna be now? this is me now this is me now this is me