Someday You'll Die

I get a text from my best friend

How have you been? Where are you?

She knows I can't get out of bed

If I say I'm fine

She'll know I'm lying

So I'll just roll back over

Another message left unread

I can't fill my medications

I'm at home under this spell

I wish awful things on strangers

Just because they're doing well

Sometimes I want to give up

I know I'll never try

And I don't even have to cuz

Someday I'll die

Someday I'll die

Someday I'll die

I've lost control

Just one more scroll

Why can't i look like that girl?

Is she lonely on that yacht?

What's all this for?

Who's keeping score?

I've wasted so much life trying

To be someone that I'm not

I've done your meditations

And I stay away from wine

I'm dreading plans I made last week

When I was doing fine

When I look into the mirror I think, "who is this tired guy?"

Then I wink at him and tell myself that

Someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

Play pretend on the stage

Try to channel this rage

It gets me high

When the lashes come off

Take a bath with my thoughts

Why can't I cry

I'm not okay

I sound insane

It's not my fault what's in my brain

I can't complain

My life is

Fucking great

When life's a mess

And you're depressed

Breath deep and just be grateful

There's just one sure thing in this life

That someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

Someday you'll die

I sleep for fun

I hate the sun

I cannot come

Someday I'll die

When you lie awake at night

Close your eyes and hold on tight

Nothings gonna be alright

Someday you'll die

This pain won't last forever

I hope that you remember

Let go and just surrender

Cuz someday you'll die