somber home

(One, two, three, four)

But what would that be like?

I mean, if we were together, where would we be ten years from now?

I'm afraid to die alone

I'm Dr. Bernard Jameson

This is the joy of living

Better get going now

They might leave you behind, yup, yup

Maybe your friends have feel-good mixed up with get high

What's the difference?

Bitch, I'm convinced I'm gon' die alone

Pipe shit, toxicology and Styrofoam

One night, I'm gon' walk out the door of my crib

With a smile on my face like, "I ain't comin' home"

Stayed at the war for twenty-four and it didn't move

That's pitiful to sit like all nature or something viscera-uh

Can't spend your whole life chasing after the bucks

I've been trying to fill the void but the answer is, "Blef"

It was five AM and I was cracked out in the train station

Waiting for the day that you would call me

'Til I realized I ain't worth shit other than this

Probably gonna end up in a ditch by all of 'em, ditch by all of 'em

Probably gonna end up in a ditch by all of 'em

Dropped my, huh, skateboard in the river

Then lost my best friend

Face of D'Usse 'til he dizzy, just wanna numb this

Stumble like a bum 'round the city

My pockets empty but fuck it

The moon is out and she pretty, I said

Autobiography rap, she really in pain

On the R-Type, she ain't gon' see it in his dream face

Homie thought I was falling asleep or was nodding off

Lock jaw from the narcotics dropped in the South of this

You should do drugs in the closet, that what closet is

You know, 'cause like, you gotta, like

Type wack that I just spit facts

But the lame motherfuckers won't give me a chance

'Member I was thirteen and wouldn't listen to Chance

In the bathroom, high as flows, doing a dance

I said, yeah

Burn too many brain cells down

To be worried 'bout my brain cells now, ooh

Burn too many brain cells down

Burn too many brain cells down

Oh, that time has passed

'Til we realize that we don't like who we see inside

I could watch the moon come, I could watch the sun rise

But it doesn't change the fact that I still wanna off myself

Deborah said, "Tomorrow's a new day"

Bev said, "Love yourself," I ain't listen

Neither two people in me two-faced

Vessel with no co-captain

Double threat like Bo Jackson

Fear I'ma die alone

Fear I've felt all the peaks and valleys

No, it don't get better than this

At what point did I lose my glint?

This all to you, just a glimpse

Solitary life, the spirit won't miss

Into the air that I've been gifted, remiss

Neglected it like a goldfish

I don't use this light well

Might as well give it to somebody else

The biggest terror, perishing alone

With nobody in love with that, somber or bold

Going out as all the blood drows in fists

Unclench your biggest affirmation

Fear I've missed, fear I've missed

Fear I've missed, fear I've missed

Fear I've missed, fear I've missed