Camouflage

I’ve been holding out on telling you

About my doubts

I don’t want to be the one to ruin this experiment

I know you’ll just freak out

But two steps into your bedroom

And I already want to leave

I don’t need another silly scheme

I need the end of this fucking lease

I just want to disappear

Camouflage like your sheets

Pretend I’m not really here

Hide in plain sight so easily

Covered in green and brown

I slip away to the background

Where I’m nowhere to be found

Spending another night

Too afraid to be impolite

Or set some fucking boundaries

God I’m so sick of being nice

I’m so sick of nice

Why do I linger in the hallway

Listening to you when I should sleep

Guilty of leaning on your doorframe

Nodding and smiling through my teeth

Why do I linger in the hallway

Listening to you when I should sleep

Guilty of leaning on your doorframe

Nodding and smiling through my teeth

I hope you know it’s not you

No, it’s me

I just want to disappear

This time will be different

Why would I ever expect

When I’m the only one who knows

What goes on inside my head

And I can’t see straight

Dreading all the time I’ll waste

Before I finally fucking say

I just want to disappear

Camouflage like your sheets

Pretend I’m not really here

Hide in plain sight so easily

I can be independent

I slip away to the background