just stand there

And I just stand there

It's been a while since I heard my own voice

I just stand there

Just before she says that she loves me

She loves me

She loves me

I sit with the night in appreciation

Of this ability to hear a world

I'm alive

I'm alive and I can feel it

I just want to be safe

She loves me

I just want to be safe

And I just stand there

And my one-bed apartment feels like a coliseum

I feel pretty, but in a handsome way

I just want to be safe

She loves me

I just want to be safe

And I just stand there

And she looks at me like she's taking photos

I just stood laughing

The full lung capacity

And the first crunch of Tayto cheese and onion crisps

I'm wide-eyed at the window

I just want to be safe

And I just stand there

I just want to be safe

And I just

And we spent sunrise to sundown in my room

Glued to the window, watching all the people go about their lives

And we decided their futures for them and ugly-laughed

And I remember thinking to myself

"Don't you dare get used to this!

Don't you dare!"

Don't you–

It felt like all four seasons happened in one day

And I just stand there, laughing at you

'Cause I can't believe this is real

And I just stand there

And I just

And I just

I just stand there

I just

I just stand there

She loves me