If I Ever Come Back

Ice-cold water showers in the summer to begin

Blowing fans, the glowing clowns, the closet that I'm in

No one really knows up in this coast the way I feel

But you're listening to what I say in what I sing

Now I feel I'm losing the creative side of me

Someone's telling me what I should do and what to think

Dreams are made of velvet, and my feelings made of fear

I wonder if I ever will come back

Since I was a kid, I always wanted to be me

Lying, trying, fighting to be in a place I could fit in

Numb my feelings now, and make myself disappear

I wonder if I ever will come back

Inside, no matter where you are

No one really knows up in this coast the way I feel

But you're listening to what I say in what I sing

Since I was a kid, I always wanted to be me

Lying, trying, fighting to be in a place I could fit in

Now I feel I'm losing the creative side of me

Someone's telling me what I should do and what to think

Dreams are made of velvet, and my feelings made of fear

I wonder if I ever will come back

Inside, no matter where you are

Lick that old fabric and get out