Explicit

I took a week off my phone

It didn’t help much

Instead of scrolling alone chasing a head rush

I wrote things down I’ve been feeling pretty often

Felt like a conversation laughing with an old friend

I wish that it helped me more

Wish that I felt less

I slammed and locked my doors

Somebody break them down

Tryna make sense somehow

Spill all my guts out loud

I don’t wanna say something explicit

So I’ll sing about it while I’m in it

A pretty harmony to hide my demons

And all the things that keep me far from sleeping

Oh I don’t wanna say something explicit

Like how I thought about who’d miss me if I meant it

Or if being 17 was how I left this in a sunset

Oh this is no sweet conversation

This is no call out for help

I’m busy healing I’m well

I can admit to myself

That I be make things way harder than they need to be

Can’t believe I’m 20

I’m older than I thought I’d be

And that’s on God and melodies

Singing low in the nighttime

Crying when it really feels right

This is me in the right light

Moving on from my past life

Every low has a good high

At this point I’m here for the ride

I don’t wanna say something explicit

So I’ll sing about it while I’m in it

A pretty harmony to hide my demons

And all the things that keep me far from sleeping

Oh I don’t wanna say something explicit

Like how I thought about who’d miss me if I meant it

Or if being 17 was how I left this in a sunset

Oh this is no sweet conversation

I took a week off my phone

It didn’t help much

I can still feel alone

Intrusive thoughts won’t win

No they aren’t permanent

So I just let them in

I don’t wanna say something explicit

I’m just making sweet conversation