Right Now

I need to heal, I need a haven

This heathen was forsaken

Am I beaten? Am I praying?

Either way I'm on my knees right now

It's deep right now, a steep climb

It's peak right now, uh

I met some demons on the way and got a feeling they'll be staying

'Cause they need accommodation

Guess I need a new lease of life now

No need to read my file

It's all open, I'ma speak right now

I was a meek, shy child

Geek, highbrow

Took me quite a while just to meet my crowd

Underneath my cloud

Beneath my shroud

The voice was soft spoken

The beats and rhymes loud

If could rewind somehow

I would speed time down

Dodging bullets is the key I knew to to weave right round

But my peace was lined out

The writing's on the wall

When you got the blue genes, no Levi Strauss

Is that all I'm gonna leave my child?

That and some vintage Transformers

Bit of past trauma

A British passport plus a sweet guy smile

I'll need to give 'em far more just to meet life's trials

There's a devil on my shoulder and he's quite loud

Albatross around my neck dragging me right down

Plus a monkey on my back, that three's quite a crowd

I'm hoping I can at least ride this out, but it's deep right now

I need to heal, I need a haven

This heathen was forsaken

Am I beaten? Am I praying?

Either way I'm on my knees right now

Yeah, it's deep right now, a steep climb

It's peak right now, uh

I met some demons on the way and got a feeling they'll be staying

'Cause they need accommodation

Guess I need a new lease of life now

No need to read my file

It's all open, I'ma speak right now

I'm kind of in my feels (Right now)

I'm climbing up the hill

But there's still something biting at my heels

Maybe I just need to chill (Right now)

Sit silently and build

And the answers will finally reveal

But see I don't think they will (Right now)

It's like the vinyl we can wheel

Play back and see what we find

Thinking we'll change tack and heed all the signs

But it's still the same track that the needle's inside

So I don't think we should rewind

And we can't fast forward

But to pause would be freezing in time

Recently I've been wrestling with every twist

Eager to find serenity, it set me adrift

From the PM to dawn, but no memory bliss

Wrapped up in yesterday, missed the presence of gifts

The past is lost, the future's grey

So the question to ask is

What can I do today, right now?

I need to heal, I need a haven

This heathen was forsaken

Am I beaten? Am I praying?

Either way I'm on my knees right now

It's deep right now, a steep climb

It's peak right now, uh

I met some demons on the way and got a feeling they'll be staying

'Cause they need accommodation

Guess I need a new lease of life now

Yeah, no need to read my file

It's all open, I'ma speak right now, uh-huh

I need to heal, I need a haven

This heathen was forsaken

Am I beaten? Am I praying?

Either way I'm on my knees right now

I said it's deep right now, a steep climb

It's peak right now, uh

I met some demons on the way and got a feeling they'll be staying

'Cause they need accommodation

Guess I need a new lease of life now

Yeah, no need to read my file

It's all open, I'ma speak right now