Trying

In deep water

Heads goin' under

Love me harder

So I can think clearer

I'll stay afloat now

But just until the waves come back

And then I'll sink further

Until the thoughts, they all fade to black

And I'm trying

To talk myself off of this ledge

To brin' myself back to bed

But it's just gettin' harder

It's just gettin' harder to rest

And I know he is with me

Or so they told me when I was younger

And lately, I'm feelin' guilty

For ever doubtin' him with my tongue

But I've gotten older

I'm askin' questions I never thought I'd ask

And I'm leanin' toward

A new direction with the sense I lack

And I'm trying

To talk myself off of this ledge

To brin' myself back to bed

But it's just gettin' harder

It's just gettin' harder to rest

And now I'm dyin'

To sound it all in my head

To love myself when I'm undressed

But it's just gettin' harder

It's been for a while, I guess

I guess

I guess