Emotional Trauma

Emotional trauma

With a prima donna

Gaspin when she see the commas

Laughin to conceal the monsters

I feel like Kanye when he lost his Donda

When my father left me

You were there to heal to pain that conquered

I’ll never pay you back for what that meant to me

Some scars just fade physically but never leave mentally

It’s weird when people spiritually connected turn to enemies

And memories

Turn to villain origin accessories

And I’m the bad guy yet again

Spend so much time tryna find who the victim is

It’s prolly both of us but neither one is giving in

So here are we again throwing punches to each other’s ribs

Gut shot stings like a buck shot

The pain hits deep

It’s like My hearts become a blood clot

Fuck love fuck thots

Fuck you

Your unblocked

Just to send this message

Hope you get on your bus stop

And then the bus crash

Your true intentions unmasked

It should’ve been a fairy tale ending

But you uncast

I know it hurts bad

But you know you deserve that

We’ll never have the life we once had

Emotional trauma with a primadona

Emotional trauma with ya

I got my problems with ya

But I can never get away

Wish my brain had a hard drive that I could reset

Wish I made the right decisions but it’s hard to reject

Moving on but shit you got me on both sides of the fence

Left your mark forever

That’s Without a scar on the flesh

Wish that I was sick and didn’t hit the bar when we met

And spent my money time with you just to be in this debt

See you happy somewhere else

While I been filled with regret

Try to find someone to blame but it’s just

Cause and effect

I thought that was the truth

Cause Nothing last forever that’s except for me and you

Young and unaware of all the shit that we would do

Tried to make it out alive but we didn’t make it through

Your parents prolly hate me but my mom still always asks

If we’re getting back together even though it ended bad

Forward thinking haunted by the habits of my past

Precious moments with you girl you even met my dad

And any girl after you won’t ever have the pleasure

So I guess that’s part of why it’s hard for me to ease the pressure

So many years

So many times

I can’t remember

Fear I’ll lose them all forever