Blue

I can't sleep at night

I've been terrified

That the darkness might catch me

I'm tryna be happy

So I leave on the light

And I turn off my mind

But lately it's useless

It's loud and it's ruthless

I try to run from the truth

The faster I go

The faster it moves

So what if I'm still

What if I feel

Every wave that's crashing over me

So what if I'm fine

After all this time

Maybe there's no monster on my doorstep after all

So what if I fall

What if I fall

What if I fall

What if I fall

The only out is through

Dive into the blue

Swimming or sinking

Lately I'm thinking

That on the other side

I might realize

That it was all worth it

That healing is hurting

I try to run from the truth

The faster I go

The faster it moves

So what if I'm still

What if I feel

Every wave that's crashing over me

So what if I'm fine

After all this time

Maybe there's no monster on my doorstep after all

So what if I fall

What if I fall

What if I fall

What if I fall

I can't sleep at night

I've been terrified

That the darkness might catch me

I'm tryna be happy