Growth Is Pain

Yeah ladies and gentleman I would like to humbly re introduce myself

My name is Dres the Pres

I appreciate you going on this journey with me ya dig?

It might be my last

Tip toeing through my mind and I'm scared of the broken glass

I feel my walls closing fast I wonder how long I'll last

Nine is on the table I want to grab it and blast

I wish I could see the face that I'm hiding behind these mask

Hand is on the bottle my right foot is on the gas

I've done this a million times I wonder if this the last

No matter how far I drive my city limits the past

No matter how high I fly I'm only destined to crash

Motivation closing I feel this moment will pass

My passion burns with a flame I turn my dreams into ash

Everything for sale check your soul and see the tag

I see my nine on the table I want to grab it and ugh

And I ain't scratched the surface I'm often antsy and nervous

I try to gather my thoughts and they jumble just like it's cursive

I'm too attached to the purchase of freedom from Sunday sermons

I gave all of my confessions now take my pain and reverse it

Sometimes I question judgement I wrap myself in discussions

That bore me to fucking death and the energy's interrupted

I'm searching for deeper meaning I find it inside production

They hate it when I am speaking they know Im going to push some buttons

You know I'm not holding back and I'm calling a spade a spade

Hate when I react and then love when I'm not engaged

I'm finally learning your name I finally know who to blame

Your shadow casting a cage depression been in the way

Witness my own uncle get turned away from the churches

I guess suicide and cancer is something they're not concerned with

And you wonder why I'm hermit I ain't coming out

I ain't left the house and if I do it's with a hundred rounds

It's hog season bitch it's time to gun them down

Won't be satisfied until their cry's is from their mothers mouth

I want to see them bleeding this pain I got not receding

I'm planning plotting and pleading the Bible said we not even

They say growth is pain

If that's the case then I'm a giant when it comes to change

I'm going through it in a hundred ways

You got to know that this is life and you can't run afraid

So when the pressure comes to visit this my day to day

Excuse me if I'm busy I'm sorry if I'm colder

But I ain't got the time to be your shoulder

I'm looking at myself I'm getting meaner as I'm older

I tried to give them trust without a fuck

Iwatched them take it and they trampled over damn

If this is how we treat each other then I'm good to walk alone and I don't need another

We can cut our ties right now and ain't no need to suffer

You breaking bread and then they eat your supper fuck is that?

Momma said forgive them where's the fun in that?

Shit I'd rather hold a grudge till the sun is black

Got a taste for blood it's like a drug and ain't no coming back

I'm exactly what you made me take a look and ain't no love in that

I'm exactly what you made me

I'm exactly what you made me