My Best Friend Sam

It’s always been a lifeline

And I’m kind of glad I said it out loud

I’m surprised that it’s the first time cause

In my head I've said it for years

I’m tired of thinking

I’m, only worth what I’m making

I want to leave

I want to quit everything

I want to be

Something more than

What I make

Kind of close to thirty

Kind of scared of looking back

I’ve never made much money

Least not much more than just getting by

I’ve wasted

Close to a decade chasing dreams and expectations

I want to leave

I want to stop everything

I want to be

Hanging out with

My best friend Sam

I’ve tried so hard to stay calm

When my mind started slipping

It just kept on going

It’s spinning way faster than I thought that it would

And it’s your guess as good as mine

Where it will go from here

It’s always been a lifeline

And I don’t know how to tell you I'm scared

That I've kind of been an anxious mess

I’m sleeping worse than I ever have

I haven’t left my bedroom

In 6 days

What no ones tells you

Nothing lasts forever

What you have now could be gone

In a week

A year

Whenever

Everybody dies alone

Nothing lasts forever

What you’re in now won’t last long

In a week a year

Whatever

You could always just come home