Dark Thoughts

So long, dark thoughts

 Crushing my days into realizations

 Trembling every pore in my skin

 Pale and silent, slowly opening up

 Rolling with the punches

 Of my own deceptions

 Growing inward

 Saying goodbye to you again

 Life's been foolish

 Gobbling on every goddamn

 Scoop of average mindset

 Convincing me of sinking slowly

 Deep into a void

 So, I get out and try again

 And slowly fall into a train

 Of rushing dark thoughts

 Crumbling my lungs

 Gasping for air

 Totaling my desire 

 Of getting lost and retire

 Last call

 Just get it together

 It's now or never

 While everyone is rooting for you

 Don't miss your chance

 Might be your last

 Time to figure it all out

 I'm sick, and I'm tired

 I'm lost, and I'm wired

 I'm resting on nothing

 Keep looking for something

 That might not be there

 Maybe it's dead

 Maybe I'm just too aware

 Of things that don't matter

 Of counting the hours

 Of every reaction to every retraction

 Of every weird thought

 Turned into dark thoughts

 I have to get out of my head

 I want to feel nothing again