Underachiever

I don't want to keep living like this

 Most times, I don't feel anything

 I am not in charge depressive states

 Are here to mingle with me

 Gratefully deceiving

 Everyone around me with

 Big smiles and loose solutions

 I'm not the same as I used to be

 I want my old life without this illness

 Hey! I'm losing!

 Hey! I feel numb!

 Hey! Please help me!

 Hey! I beg you!

 Dishes keep on piling up

 Unmade beds slowly become the standard

 Retracting my victories and calling me an

 Underachiever

 Hey! I'm losing!

 Hey! I feel numb!

 Hey! Please help me!

 Hey! I can't stop!

 Sleeping and hiding

 Defeated and fragile

 Losing touch

 Forgetful and dreadful

 Are traits that are trying to define me

 Hey, I'm losing

 At this moment

 But I will bounce back

 For myself