No Easy Way Out

Some days I feel like I could just explode Trapped underneath a weight nobody knows about I'm watching my life spin out of control Should get out of this bed but I don't know how I keep hearing "You'll get through this" "Flip the switch, there's nothing to it" Like I would ever choose this I swear that I want to be happy again I swear this is not who I've always been But emptiness is comfortable And hopeless feels just like home When you're in this deep There's no easy way out Sometimes it's not the old me that I miss (it's not the old me) I miss the person that I dreamed I'd get to be What happens if this season never ends (what if it never ends?) And what if it becomes my identity? I swear I want to be happy again I swear this is not who I've always been But emptiness is comfortable And hopeless feels just like home When you're in this deep There's no easy way out Oh it's like a chain reaction I get some traction Then one thing crashes And I'm relapsing Just like that I'm right back in this place That I can't escape I swear I want to be happy again I swear this is not who I've always been I swear I want to be happy again I swear this is not who I've always been But emptiness is comfortable And hopeless feels just like home When you're in this deep When you're in this deep There's no easy way out