Pain Addiction

Lonely is the person delusional enough to believe in themselves

It's the sad truth

I feel alone inside my mind

Doesn't matter how hard I try

Anger turns to depression

No one left to talk to, forgot how to be fine

I guess I'll ignore the pain again this time

Someone asks me how I'm doing yeah I tell them that "I am alive"

Angry or being numb, I can't choose a side

In my heart and my soul I know this won't subside

I'm Just waiting around for death to arrive, yeah

I’m okay I don’t need anyone's help

I’m alright, I’ll do just fine by myself, yeah

Just leave, Don’t worry about my health

Just leave me in my own mental cell, yeah

I guess I'm addicted to this pain

Cause I keep coming back

I keep hearing things will change

But no, it never has

I'm told time will heal the wounds

And the sun will shine again

But in this dimly lit room

I just reminisce on when

Cause I guess I'm just tired of feeling this way

Tired of the way you look at my face

Tired of the way it all stays the same

What’s the point of it all when it just causes you pain

I’m okay I don’t need anyones help

I’m alright, I’ll do just fine by myself

Just leave, Don’t worry about my health

Just leave me in my own mental cell

I’m here

To stay

The burn inside the vein

It’s me awake

My life traded for a fix

I need to fuckin commit

Sitting on the edge of the fence

I know I got a problem

Stuck in my fear I can’t admit

Crush into dust

Now I’m breathing in the lifestyle

I can’t outrun

My mistakes now it’s light out

I’m not enough

Finding purpose in my pain I’ll

Hope to change

Breaking the cycle

Dying slowly dying

Ego death to kill the giant

I’m in line to find my guidance

My impatience takes my soul