Burgundy

I was running up the dope before the dough, you can check the records

Ever since I got conscious, dying was obvious, counting down the seconds

I was left with no options, snorting Oxys off a Smith & Wesson

Body filled with narcotics, fuck the optics, bitch, next question

Smoking like I been stressing

Hoes trying to read me, leave 'em dyslexic

Get this weight off my chest like I'm bench pressing, I'm big stepping

Jordan Clarkson with the Narcan

I shoot for 30, and that's with my off hand

Walk in, they like, "Who let the dogs in?"

Kill myself 'fore I let an opp win

Bitches begging me to get toxic, okay, let me go and pour a cup

Mom and Dad would if they could, I ain't even mad they ain't showing up

Thinking 'bout it got me choking up

If I love her, time to blow it up

Pop on some percs till I'm throwing up

Then refresh on X like I'm scrolling up

Yeah, I got some wounds that ain't closing up

Cuts on my body, no toning up

Ghost that there ain't no disposing of

Yeah, aye

Emotionless, but the dose is up

Fuck affection, I don't cozy up

You in my house and that's close enough

I got problems with trust, I got problems with lust

Bitch, that's powder, not dust

Whole gang brain fucked, G59, we the cult

They ain't nothing like us, they say "Huh," I say "What"

I drank Tuss, they drink nut, they all pussies, get touched

Turn a opp to a slut, turn his block to a blunt

Watch my dog, he got flushed looking at his first dead body

Life too painful and the game will change you

Have you saying, "Fuck everybody"

Don't give a fuck what they hear about me

Got a couple killers, including Dre, around me

Better think twice 'fore you play 'round me

More guns on me than a red county

Copped the Porsche 911, now I'm gettin' randomly selected

Searched for drugs and bombs and weapons, wait a second, no need for aggression

Just a common misconception, bettin' that they'll threaten my profession

Their perception of who I am won't make me question who I am, damn

Rose gold and morganite lookin' like a suicidal gesture

Knocked her ex-boyfriend the fuck out just so I could impress her

Just so I could undress her

Now I'm paying for the fall semester

Told her to call me professor, after winter break I'ma hand her off to my successor

Strive for the greater and never the lesser

Me and $crim made it without an investor

Yeah, we survived suicidal adventures

Made a pact that we would never surrender

Never surrender, made a pact that we would never surrender

Selling my soul to my dreams and my goals, but I won't ever stop until I'm on the stretcher

There's a demon in me and I think it might have overstayed its welcome

There's a demon in me and it's helping me to reach a state of bedlam

Snorting these pills like I'm trying to smell 'em

I'm declaring war on my cerebellum

My worst enemy is the version of me that I can't even fucking remember

Uh, yeah

Ruby been destined for the looney bin

'Round my finger, the Uzi spins while I'm chugging some bougie gin

Lose or win, I'm never slowin' down like we losin' wind

I'm grooming them for death 'cause my lifestyle will you have choosin' limbs

The moon is dim tonight, I have to remain locked up in my tomb again

Took too many Xans, I started asking who is $crim?

The knot is loose again, someone tied to noose too thin

Living life like pulling teeth, I'll die with a toothless grin