Somber

Seasons come and go, moments disappear

Memories turn grey I haven't smiled in a year

I try my best to persevere but It's unclear how much that I can take

Decades worth of weight upon these shoulders have me bound to break

Open wide I sleep awake, lucid dreaming all the time

Intertwined with the night sky where I search for mine

Check for signs of life inside a painting that I thought was real

Travel to the end of time unlearning what I'm made to feel

Maybe I can help you heal, maybe I can help you see

Maybe if I pick you up, you could do the same for me

Lately I've been asking if it's even worth the time

Sinking with the ship and singing shanties with the sky

Still every single solitary choice that lead me to this place

If not mistake a stroke of luck or maybe something known as fate

Therefore I paint myself with wings ascending high above the trap

Stare at the abyss and the abyss stares back

Withdrawing from attention makes me feel some type of way

I want so badly to be heard but I don't know what I would say

Overthinking always second guessing like my 2nd nature

Just a couple more behaviors working against my favor

I've been trapped inside a self-destructive cycle on repeat

The more I fight to free my feet the further in they sink

The line is getting blurry between me and who I'd be

If I could finally break the chains that bind my mind beneath the sea you see

Solutions are subjective often answers hide in plain

We differ in objective but our blood look like the same

Restless indirection of the soul results in shame

Which then in turn perpetuates that vicious cycle of destain

But know surviving life in spite of fighting fire we evolve

Emotions merely momentary love outlive it all

Fear will soon dissolve along with hate we'll liquidate

Into one billion beads of blood and sweat I'm painting in my wake