Not A Heartbreak

You'd say

"I'd see you in the movies"

But I'd say

"I'd probably sleep right through it"

We'd play

On the train to school, and, oh

Messing around

Being so loud

We always said we were friends

I didn't know I liked you then

You'd do the accent

A proper New York gangster

You'd ask me questions

But I couldn't answer

Oh, 'cause I got tongue tied

When you said you were leaving

It brought up a feeling

I shouldn't be feeling

If it's not a heartbreak

Why do I feel broken?

Cut wide open

From the love we never made

And if it's not a heartache

When will I stop wanting

For you to call me darling

And tell me I will be okay?

But it's not a heartbreak

Two years

Since I last saw you

You seem different

And I think I've changed too

I've been building little futures

It sounds stupid but they're mine

I wish I told you

But I never told you

If it's not a heartbreak

Why do I feel broken?

Cut wide open

From the love we never made

And if it's not a heartache

When will I stop wanting

For you to call me darling

And tell me I will be okay?

But it's not a heartbreak

I didn't know I loved you then

I was scared to let you in

How can you lose something you never had?

If it's not a heartbreak

Why do I feel broken?

Cut wide open

From the love we never made

Oh, and if it's not a heartache

When will I stop wanting

For you to call me darling

And tell me I will be okay?

If it's not a heartbreak

Why do I feel this way?