Abhorrence

Why is this happening?

Everything means nothing

Surrounded and no one can hear me

Your faces are abhorrent, you all make me sick

I'll just suffer in silence

Malignant synesthesia

To me nightmares are reality

Sinking deeper and deeper

Into a perpetual abyss

Of unspeakable horrors

Fighting through the dark (Pray for it, beg for it, it won't go away)

I can't find myself (So many voices, can't hear what they say)

Hyperventilating, anoxia, skin under nail

Defilade shattered, I can't hear myself think

Bathing in a pool of joyous misery

Fighting through the dark (Pray for it, beg for it, it won't go away)

I can't find myself (So many voices, can't hear what they say)

Here it comes again

Slithering, crawling

Calling me back to its warm embrace

This is something you can't comprehend

This all will be over soon

Suffer in silence (Pray for it, beg for it, it won't go away)

Suffering silence (So many voices, can't hear what they say)

Suffer in

Silence

It feels like I'm dying to survive

Synapses flare and I can't close my eyes

Involuntary spasms won't subside

Trapped within this prison of my mind

Why is this happening?

Why is this happening?

Why is this happening?

Why is this happening?

Why is this happening?

Suffering