Seeds of Doubt

I used to watch for primrose in the springtime

Marvel when the first buds would begin

Until I fell into your winter and your nighttime

And your tempers that keep changing like the wind

I cannot get my brain to hush the chatter

When you're cold and greet me like a stone

It's no longer mind over matter

Once the seeds of doubt have been sown

Like a vine

Wrapped around my heart and girdled tight

So entwined

My better nature cannot reach the light

I know that it might look like I'm a coward

But I have this tiger by the tail

If I let go I'll surely be devoured

If I hold on I'll starve to no avail

I wonder if the angels will receive me

Standing in the dark holding your phone

It used to be so easy to deceive me

But now the seeds of doubt have been sown

Like a vine

Wrapped around my heart and girdled tight

So entwined

My better nature cannot reach the light

I've worked it out so nothing can surprise me

I've traded down to not be made a fool

If you saw me now you would not recognize me

A dull and dusty rock made from a jewel

Getting through the days the weeks the hours

Once the garden beds are overgrown

You tend to your weeds like they are flowers

When the seeds of doubt have been sown

When the seeds of doubt have been sown