spittake

it’s all in my lies

but i’m telling the truth

what if I really loathe myself

just as much as i pretend to

that brings me to tears

that brings me to god

god does a spit-take baby

he says I was the joke all along

so once you figure that out

let me know

before I lose it

this can’t be it all now can it

hold me close im dying dammit