Open Scars

Fight, that's the way that I know that the love is gone

'Cause I know we gonna fight, that's the way that I know that the love is gone

Uh, no love lost, it was never love

I lost sight, found God, a more better love

I ain't never went soft, I'm forever thug

Yeah, and you ain't God, so you could never judge

I had guys I called brothers leave me in the storm

That's why my heart's still cold even when it's warm

All of a sudden they forget, like I ain't put 'em on

And never had to owe me shit, I did it off the arm

Still fighting demons, ducking bullets, pulling thorns

It's funny how they still sleep, like I ain't blowing horns

This female look like a male, like it's something wrong

Nah, still suck my dick, bitch, nothing's wrong

This whole industry is rigged, I don't need awards

I done things never did and still don't get applause

Like I ain't got W's across the fucking board

And my mom became the GOAT when I was fucking born

04.03.92

And I'm only 5'7" but my gun is 5'2"

It's Red Lyfe till I die but my jewelry sky blue

I don't need material shit, my aura could shine too

Big motion, punching the clock till my time's due

And anything making me wealthy, I'm doing it times two

Big healthy, no liquor, just water and lime juice

No more drugs, something I put my spirit and mind to

I feel like something's always missing

No matter how much I do, how much I succeed

I always just feel like it's never a hundred percent

That's what makes me have that bittersweet feeling

You know what I mean? Like this is when I first experienced what death really is

A part of you died with your brother?

Right, bascially

For the past three years, I let my fans down

I lost faith and I couldn't understand how

I had to go and free my mind and let my hair down

Without the Henny, I see everything clear now

It's something about the industry, it feel weird now

It's like the music ain't music

It ain't music

It aint hittin' like

You don't feel it like

It's like they don't care now

They don't give a fuck

It's just something for you to hear now

It's like the world shifted, too much confusion

And when I lost the passion for music is when my world ended

I was distracted by trauma, all of the drama

From girlfriends to my momma, fuckin' my mind up

To hurting my health and seeing doctors

Down to about four, five, six friends on the roster

It's funny when you lit, it's a whole line up

But this is part of the game, I took the pen and I signed up

Broke up with depression, let go my anxiety

Turn my back on the devil and neglect the society

Face a reality

Accepting the pain inside of me

No more judging my honesty

No more judging my honesty

Recovery on velocity

The liquor wasn't hiding my pain, it was hiding me

Looking at life like, "Why would you lie to me?"

Like, "Why would you lie to me?"

Spirit crack, heart broke, my love was on modesty

Decaying my quality, decreasing my quantity

Catching up to my truths, finally meeting my prophecy

Uh, I swear to God, life was kicking my ass

May seem like I had it good but mentally it was bad

Just to get my brother back, I'll give up all of this cash

And I'll buy a flight just to take a trip to the past

Trust issues won't change, that's just something I have

I keep a lawn mower just to see the snakes in the grass

And I build a fence just to keep the snakes in the grass

And I keep a hawk just to eat the snakes in the grass

Down on my deathbed but God healing my fast

He got other plans for me, this just part of the task

Smiling was a disguise, there was tears under that mask

Suffocating inside for years under that mask

No regrets 'cause when I lost love, I found peace

When I finally dug deep, ****, I found a beast

Since 2020, I was losing, I was down three

I locked in, finished the album in nine weeks

The streets hungry, as soon as I'm cooking, the town eats

Only my **** at the table 'cause they found seats

Heal first, find peace, find keys, mind free

First step, find God, next step, find me