Hostage

I look at the moon And I wonder how many more I'll get to see I look at my friends And I worry there's someplace else they'd rather be I stay up at night Counting the hours until sunrise Just thinking about All of the ways that I I keep myself down Hold myself hostage Feels like I've got this pain weighing on me It's every day, every moment Maybe I'm broken And broken is all I'm ever gonna be I keep checking my phone Cause I'm terrified you'll forget about me And I write these songs Hoping to finally set myself free I go through the day Counting the hours until starlight Still thinking about All of the ways that I I keep myself down Hold myself hostage Feels like I've got this pain weighing on me It's every day, every moment Maybe I'm broken And broken is all I'm ever gonna be Broken is all I'm ever gonna be And it's slowly, slowly killing me I keep myself down Hold myself hostage Feels like I've got this pain weighing on me It's every day, every moment Maybe I'm broken And broken is all I'm ever gonna be