Since Pac Died

J.U.S.T.I.C.E. League

Yeah, turn me down just a little bit, yeah

I ain't shed a tear since Pac died

Don't know why it hit me when Pop died

Brooklyn lost one, I don't even know the homie

Still runnin' from my demons, there's an omen on me

Like that time they tried to charge my first born with murder

Got me callin' every lawyer that I ever heard of

Oh, lord, please tell me what you see in me

Teary eyed, they got my baby boy on TMZ

Balled up in the bed, feeling like a failed father

Then I tried to stand up, and I fell farther

Mama died, and I didn't know how to grieve

That's the last time that a **** smoked some weed

That za had me in my head, I might break for real

Contract with the devil, I might sign a deal

Oh, lord, have mercy, I just wanna see her

I'd trade places with her now, I just wanna be her

All I seen in my face was a 25

She said, "Take your ass to school or you won't be alive"

Swear that she hit me with my own hand

What I'm sayin', my mama slapped me like a grown man

Baby raisin' babies, I forgive you, Mama

You had to clean them people's toilets, I was with you, Mama

Two bedroom trailer, I was so ashamed

Had SpaghettiOs for dinner, all I taste is pain

Single black mother, that's the reason, right?

Meanwhile, I don't know if I can read or write

Somebody pay the light bill, we gon' see tonight

When your future gets dark, all you see is white

I just tried and I tried, but I never died

Uncle Wade my best customer, he always fried

When you asked me am I good, I just always lied

Streets sucked my soul dry, that's why I'm always tired

Served dope fiend Jackie, that's Tameka mama

I should be ashamed, I'm part of Tameka's trauma

Prettiest dark-skinned girl in the whole school

Even brought my bomb to class, thought I was so cool

I hope you loving heaven and you ain't embarrassed

You can tell them that your baby boy's known in Paris

Yeah, I know I made a mess, but I'ma clean it up

Had to cut the fat from round me, had to lean it up

Please send a sign if you hear me, Mama

Yeah, this Lil' Jay, I'm hoping you forgive me, Mama

By the way, I had a beef and shot at DJ Drama

Apologized about it, yeah, I'm tryna keep the honor

Same time healed, I'm tryna beat my trauma

And be a natural born leader until I see you, Mama

That was on my heart, and I don't know why

I'm puttin' on my shades, y'all gon' make me cry