My Own Miracle

Fake smiles are holding me together For worse or for better 'cause I've never had anyone To stay long enough to see the weather The pain and the pressure, I carry like a loaded gun Been through things that you can't see A kind of suffering the eyes don't notice Rather hide when I'm hurting Than be a burden 'cause all I know is Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle Worked twice as hard through the diseases And make up for the weakness, advice is not visible No friends to pick up all the pieces No sympathy or sweetness, no wonder I'm cynical Walk the path that will kill most Where a heart closed, and you left to temper I don't know how to love 'cause I tried to trust, but then I remembered Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle "Are you okay? You need to chat?" The questions I was never to ask I should feel strong, but I just feel sad So just let me grieve what I never had Oh, oh, oh-oh-oh Nobody showed up, nobody slowed down They must have been deaf, I was screaming so loud Nobody had faith I'd ever be found Born into a hole six feet in the ground I had to love me when nobody cared And be the family that never was there Had to have hope when I didn't feel spiritual Had to be my own, my own miracle