brain cancer

All of this time Walking around the earth like you Like you But all of this time Spent walking around I never knew I never knew Burned into my eyes And onto the film, it can't be true It can't be true I'm not ready to die But you can't take them out now can you? Can you? My thoughts and ambitions with worms eating through Memories infested with maggots, who knew? Unfixable, hopeless, too many to count Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my Thoughts and ambitions start culturing mould How can I think still when most of its gone? Will I be cursed to think still when all of it's gone? You can't just expect me to keep going strong when my Thoughts, my ambitions are covered in holes How can I think now when all of it's gone? And I'm Not the same person I've been all along but there's Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my Thoughts, my ambitions are covered in holes Thoughts and ambitions are covered in holes And I'm not the same person I've been all along Oh you can't just expect me to keep going strong I'll never feel the warmth of your hands I'll never grow into a man I'll never see the transit of Venus I promised I'd see it as soon as I can I'll never be realer than you I'll never not have something to do And if could help it then wouldn't I try? I don't wanna die, wish I never knew I'll never rest, I'll never last So many shows only watch 'em so fast Too many things I wish I could change But let's just be honest I'd do them again If doctors can't help me then why do they try Why give me a chance when I'd much die from these Bugs in my brain, there's too many to count Nothing to do but just sit here and watch as The flowers and trees live an ignorant life Unknown to regrets if they life or they die And I don't want to go oh I don't want to go Oh I don't want to go just a little bit longer I don't even stand by the things that I said I wasted my time thinking thoughts in my head When I could've just loved you, but going again Oh I'd make sure to punch this wall just a bit harder I'll kill all the beetles, the flowers and trees I'll preheat my brain to a thousand degrees And I'm fried and you're terrified, don't want to look But there's nothing to do but just sit here and watch as The flowers and trees live an ignorant life Unknown to regrets if they life or they die And I don't want to go oh I don't want to go Oh I don't want to go just a little bit longer I don't even stand by the things that I said I wasted my time thinking thoughts in my head When I could've just loved you, but going again Oh I'd make sure to punch this wall just a bit harder I'll kill all the beetles, the flowers and trees I'll preheat my brain to a thousand degrees And I'm fried and you're terrified, don't want to look But there's nothing to do but just sit here and watch as my- "Oh, it's over"