Petals

I've often wondered if there's ever been a perfect family

I've always longed for undivided-ness and sought stability

A flower taught me how to pray

But as I grew, that flower changed

She started flailing in the wind

Like golden petals scattering

And I miss you, dandelion

And even love you

And I wish there was a way

For me to trust you

But it hurts me every time

I try to touch you

But I miss you, dandelion

And even love you

I gravitated towards a patriarch, so young predictively

I was resigned to spend my life within a maze of misery

A boy and a girl befriended me

We're bonded through despondency

I stayed so long but finally

I fled to save my sanity

And I miss you little sis and little brother

Miss you

And I hope you realize I'll always love you

Always love you

And although you're struggling

You will recover

You're gonna make it, baby

And I miss you little sis and little brother

So many I considered closest to me

Turned on a dime and sold me out dutifully

Although that knife was chipping away at me

They turned their eyes away and went home to sleep

Sleep, sleep, sleep

And I missed a lot of life

But I'll recover

Though I know you really like

To see me suffer

Know you like to see me suffer

Still I wish that you and I'd forgive each other

'Cause I miss you, Valentine

And really loved you

I really

I really loved you

I used to love you

Yeah, yeah

I tried so hard

To preserve my sanity

And I found the strength to break away

Fly