golden years

I can't ever get some rest, oh

Staring at my ceiling, thinking 'bout the weight that's on my chest

I'm always worried 'bout what's next

I think I forgot

How to live in present tense

Yeah, I'm supposed to be in the prime of my life

But all I can see are the demons I fight

Try to believe that there's a silver lining

I can't find it

I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years

Climbing all the way to the top

So how the hell'd I wind up here?

Tryna be somebody I'm not

Used to be a lot less jaded

Now I'm lost, and all frustrated

Trading happiness for tears

And all my golden years

I could be a mile ahead by now (Somewhere better)

But I'm burning all my daylight wondering how

I can get there

I know I shouldn't count all of my days under the sun

But I don't wanna blink and then I wake up and it's gone

And never really got to be the person that I want to be

Oh, I'm supposed to feel like I'm living it right

Is it all in my head? Am I wasting my time?

Try to believe that there's a silver lining

I can't find it

I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years

Climbing all the way to the top

So how the hell'd I wind up here?

Tryna be somebody I'm not

Used to be a lot less jaded

Now I'm lost, and all frustrated

Trading happiness for tears

And all my golden years

And all my golden years

I don't wanna be

Spending all my golden years

Climbing all the way to the top

So how the hell'd I wind up here?

Tryna be somebody I'm not

Used to be a lot less jaded

Now I'm lost, and all frustrated

Trading happiness for tears

And all my golden years