It All Keeps Running Back, Babe

When you brush my thigh, then I start to hide

And my reflex tells me to grip my sides

And when I withdraw deeper inside myself

I’m too ashamed to proceed with a cry for help

I try to tell, will I grab your waist? Only time will tell

You look at me like you did something wrong

And I proceed to move on, but I’m withholding all my dignity

I’m empty and gone

I kiss you on the neck but then you touch my chest

I’m cold, I sweat, I hold my breath, swallow now

Sink to your socks on your bedroom floor

And you can feel the cold pull from the open door

I could drive away

I could tear up the book, this the final page

She caught your look this time

Oh it all keeps running back babe

It wasn’t who I meant to be

It’s not easy

Oh all it all keeps running back to me

It wasn’t who I meant to be

It’s not easy

Told her once upon a time was a kid in trouble

Now she’s deep into my side, as I pictured the bottle

Struggle, I choke, hide the lump in my throat

When she asked what happened next, then i quiver, I broke

I can’t cope

Laugh, distract with dumb jokes, I show

Weakness in my fever dreams, it’s easy kid, just sink within yourself

Stare at her and wish that you could tell

Oh it all keeps running back babe

It wasn’t who I meant to be

It’s not easy

Oh all it all keeps running back to me

It wasn’t who I meant to be

It’s not easy