Hopeless

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

Haven't really been okay

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

Haven't been myself in days

I wrote this on a Tuesday

I woke up hoping that I could things

Even just a few things

A step up from Monday

Sit inside my room play loops till the room shake

Still I'm feeling nothing

Maybe if I hit the gym I'll get a second wind

On second thought I think I'd rather check up on my friends instead

A couple messages I kept unread

I go to type but instead I left them on read

Why is it the things always left unsaid that speak volumes

Thinking I should call you

Tell you bout the place that I fell to

But what if you fall too

I know you all too well you attached to my emotions

Don't wanna burden you I guess I'll hold this

I'll figure it all out when I'm at my lowest

But if I'm being honest I hope you notice

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

Haven't really been okay

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

Haven't been myself in days

Lately I forget who myself is

Caught up in opinions of the people I dealt with

Thinking that I need to be the person that they want to be

Cause being me is probably just selfish right

They tell me write a song about the way that I'm feeling

But this writers block got me in the way of my healing

Self doubt like a hundred pounds always hold me down can't break through the ceiling

But I'd rather try and fail than never try at all

And I'd rather climb the hill than never climb at all

I'd rather love and lose than not ever love

Ain't about falling down it's bout getting up

You ask me how I'm doing and I said I'm feeling fine

I know you don't believe me cause you ask a second time

I still double down and tell you everything's alright

Don't you worry, I just need to get outside clear my mind

The moment that I leave you be texting me, checking me

Always want the best for me, my ride or die

If you ain't giving up on me then why should I

I went back inside, look you in the eyes and I told you

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

I haven't really been okay

I been feeling hopeless

Have you noticed

I haven't been myself in days