Heartless

You said I'm acting different but brought it up casually

'Cause you know confrontation scares the living hell out of me

And we talked through our options, but I didn't see any

'Cause my dream, it's always been right here in Music City

And when my dad was helping me pack as I was crying

He asked, "Are you sure?"

And I felt heartless, I felt selfish

Like maybe I'm making a mistake and I can help it

Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy

For trying to push myself out of my limits

You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming

I'm simply putting a box in a backseat

But holy shit, just 'cause I'm leaving

Doesn't mean I won't have regrets

Or that this breaks my heart less

I know I did the breaking up and I should really own it

But I don't think I'm even allowed to be sad for a moment

But I've been crying four weeks straight

Trying to convince myself I'm okay

It'll get easier one day, won't it?

And I felt heartless, I felt selfish

Like maybe I'm making a mistake and I can help it

Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy

For trying to push myself out of my limits

You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming

I'm simply putting a box in a backseat

Holy shit, just 'cause I'm leaving

Doesn't mean I won't have regrets

Or that this breaks my heart less

And how narcissistic of me when I was the one

Who chose to leave

When this should be about you and how you constantly proved

That you were too good to me

And I'm so heartless, I'm so selfish

For saying I'm making a mistake and I can help it

Maybe I should stay, maybe I'm crazy

For trying to push myself out of my limits

You didn't hurt me, nobody's screaming

I'm simply putting a box in a backseat

But holy shit, just 'cause I'm leaving

Doesn't mean I won't have regrets

Or that this breaks my heart less