Stay Awake

There’s been a lot of casualties

I know that death is after me

There’s never been a better time to be alive than now

You see catastrophe has to be essential to the masterpiece

Each moment that we know it brings us closer to reality

Imagine me half asleep caught up in a fantasy

Acid weed and death has got me deep into insanity

I barely sleep fairly bleak you and I we rarely speak

Feeling weak, feelings keep bringing me up to the brink

Stop and think, have a drink, call a friend, Chandler Bing

Got myself into a hole and now I don’t know what to sing

The only thing holding me is hope the phone would only ring

Hello it’s me I’m lonely could I get a sign that being alive’s not only pain

I’m tryna stay awake another holy day

I’m tryna hold a space for the coldest days cus it’ll get worse

Fuck the church I found god is the only way

Call it what you want but when all is said and done

You can only see the sun if you’re willing to go blind

And I know that I’m alive cus I know that I won’t always be

And I’m tryna make a sound like a falling tree

And it feels like it always falls on me If you relate you can always call on me

As somebody who’s nobody but the words I say on the page

and the body where I spend my day

I’m gon party up til we part ways

You taught me me all about heartbreak

You’re lemonade on a hot day

You are the shape that my heart takes

Vibrations, false implications please don’t take the way that I made you in my mind away

I know that it’s not you but it’s the you that I got used to

When you knew me and I knew you too

Now nothing feels the way it used to

Since you broke my heart in two

It’s still you that I got used to

And I know you got used cus I got used too

It ended for the better but it’s too soon

No one knows a better me than you do

It’s still you that I got used to