It's Not a Competition

My tongue is never sitting right inside my mouth

It’s been a couple weeks of uncomfortable now

I guess it’s kinda sad, the way it all played out

I’m blanking in the areas of where and how

You put it in your song, and passive aggressively

Tell all of your friends, talk to strangers, anyone but me

I guess you’re really good at never facing what you don’t want

Guess you never really had the best intentions, so what

I’m not gonna let you in this time, no

I’m not gonna feel bad

Cos it’s not a competition

No it’s not a competition

But if it was

I’d be winning, cos I don’t care what you’re thinking

And I don’t care where you’re drinking tonight

Getting in fights with strangers, again

And i’m not wishing hell on you

I want nothing, nothing to do

With the pain that you’ve caused or the lies that you [bore?]

I’m done, it’s not a competition

Cos i’m done

You wouldn’t wanna see me here, explaining myself

You’d probably sit at home and just sedate yourself

But I can see my ignorance is coming through

All your friends hate me, and I do too

But i’m not gonna play the victim this time

I know you’d love that

And you don’t listen

No it’s not a competition

But if it was

I’d be winning, cos I don’t care what you’re thinking

And I don’t care where you’re drinking tonight

Getting in fights with strangers, again

And i’m not wishing hell on you

I want nothing, nothing to do

With the pain that you’ve caused or the lies that you [bore?]

I’m done, it’s not a competition

But if it was, well i’m not keeping score

And if I was [or ?if i was honest?], I don’t wanna play anymore

Cos there’s no winning, when I don’t care what you’re thinking

And I don’t care where you’re drinking tonight

Getting in fights, again

And i’m not wishing hell on you

I want nothing, nothing to do

With the pain that you’ve caused or the lies that you wrote for fun

It’s not a competition ‘cos I won