Don't Love Myself

What if i just lost it?

Would I still be my own enemy?

24 exhausted

Sucking in my stomach

I can’t breathe

Standing in the mirror and

It’s screaming back at me

I change my clothes a thousand times

Feel worse bout what i see

All these unrealistic expectations

Calm down, I’ll love myself when I’m impatient and

I don’t feel good enough

Next time i have these thoughts

I’ll take my time

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

(Look, I dunno but I'm figuring it out)

I can’t even post a picture

I think I’ve been in a loop for days

I hate every angle

I’m afraid it’s showing on my face

Standing in the mirror and

It’s screaming back at me

Sabotage myself and

I regret it instantly

All these unrealistic expectations

Calm down, I’ll love myself when I’m impatient and

I don’t feel good enough

Next time i have these thoughts

I’ll take my time

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

Walking on a tight rope

With my demons

Feeding

All this stops tonight

The time i’ve wasted

Patterns breaking

I’ve done this whole my life

Even on days when it feels like for nothing

Judging myself when

I’m still doing something

I’m living a lie

I’m done

I’m done

I’m done

All these unrealistic expectations

Calm down, I’ll love myself when I’m impatient and

I don’t feel good enough

Next time i have these thoughts

I’ll take my time

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself

I’ll love myself when I don’t love myself