If I Ever Was a Child

I've never been alone

Long enough to know

If I ever was a child

I was tied up like a boat

Unbuttoned like a coat

Set free for a while

Well, I jumped to jolt my clumsy blood

While my white, green eyes

Cry like a window pane

Can my cold heart change

Even out of spite?

I slumped behind my brain

A haunted stain never fades

I hunt for the kind of pain I can take

And I cry like a window pane

Can my cold heart change

Over night?

So I won't ever want to touch

Your heart too much

Or hold you too tight

I slumped behind my brain

A haunted stain will never fade

I hunt for the kind of pain I can take

I never was alone

Long enough to know

If I ever was a child