I Should Just Go To Bed

Guess you're really gone

I've been so fixated

On everything I lost

In just one conversation

Where you said life was long

But mine isn't worth wastin'

Your mind isn't wrong, doesn't mean I'm not

Wishin' I could change it

It's always 10 PM, layin' in my head

Turnin' all my thoughts to potential texts

That's the way I get after 2 AM and it's 2 AM

So how you doin'?

You seem fine and I've been goin' through it

Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined

'Cause somehow you still love me in my head

I hate that I imagine

When you get this message, your reaction

It's late again, well, that's what always happens

I know I'd regret everything I'd send

I should just go to bed

Ooh

I should just go to bed

Ooh

I don't wanna care (Mm)

So I'm optimistic (Mm)

Am I not self-aware (Mm)

For hopin' that you'll miss this? (Mm)

And you say there's a future us (Mm)

But how can I be certain of what will become? (Mm)

With all your words and actions never syncin' up (Mm)

It's hard to know it's me you're really thinkin' of

'Cause when it's 10 PM, layin' in my head

I can hear your voice, words you never said

That's the way I get after 2 AM, here I go again

So how you doin'?

You seem fine and I've been goin' through it

Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined

'Cause somehow you still love me in my head

I hate that I imagine

When you get this message, your reaction

It's late again, well, that's what always happens

I know I'd regret everything I'd send

I should just go to bed

Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go)

I should just go to bed

Ooh (I should just go, I should just go, I should just go)

I should just go to bed

So why's it hard to be the bigger person? I'm just hurtin'

I keep tryna justify the way you left and it's not working

Don't deserve it

Swear to God you're hurting me on purpose

And maybe it's my fault 'cause, at your worst, I see the best in you

Lettin' you go piece by piece until there's nothin' left to lose

It's workin'

But sometimes I just wanna say in person

How you doin'?

You seem fine and I've been goin' through it

Selfishly, I hope your heart is ruined

Really thought we'd make it in the end

I should just go to bed