Flatline Afternoon

0, 1, 2,

Three days from a flatline afternoon

What I'd do

Go through

To taste a second of the life that I once knew

When I was young

And all I'd want

Was to set the world on fire

With the sparks coming off my eyes

But it's hard to love

It's hard to trust

With that sinking in your gut

And a beating heart that's like a set of cuffs

I'd give it all to turn back time

To when this body felt like mine

And I wouldn't fear that staying here

Could break the heart of someone dear

But now it's always on my mind

3... 2... 1...

Just like that and this can't be undone

Have your fun

Chase the rush

As you're rusting by the month

There's no ignoring what's to come

All of the power I took back falls away

When my hands go numb and my vision fades

There's a thread from my head to the floor by my bed

That never goes away when you're sick until you pass away

I'd give it all to turn back time

To when this body felt like mine

And I wouldn't fear that staying here

Could break the heart of someone dear

But now it's always on my mind

You know it

You know that

Tears go stale in a hospital bed

Wear them out until you're dead

Tears stale in a hospital bed

A new start or a tragic end?

My prize

A catastrophic life

I couldn't leave behind if I tried

It's my call

I command it all

From where you rest your head

While the rain rolls off

My words like a firing squad

On every caustic thought that would've played us off

This won't be my forever