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(Instrumental)

The silence

Fills

My head

After 16 years I still don't feel like I have company

And every time I get close to achieving ridding of my loneliness, I push everyone away

It's overwhelming having people around you when you're so used to being alone, it's so hard to feel like you have no space

But at the same time its so overwhelming, the feeling of loneliness

When you don't try to reach out and when you don't have people suffocating you at every moment

I feel stuck at every moment, I wish with everything inside of me that I could find a balance

A balance where I, Connor Holt VanDyke, no longer feel alone

But I always feel lost in a sea of eyes

Hoping at every moment for a chance at hiding

And I wish and I pray every single day that I could murder this soul inside of me

In search for a new one, just to have a chance at a new day

A new day where I don't feel so alone

A new day where everyone loves me

A new day where I feel comfortable to speak

(a new day) where I can breathe

Just for once

A new day