Jaded

I wish the people who lie and say that they love me

Would look me in my pretty face

And tell me all of their true intentions

I never really was the "drown it out" type

But I must admit that I got a problem

Probably need an intervention

I'm looking in the mirror

And recognizing the parts of my dad I don't like

And that's the truth that I don't wanna live in

I called my mom last night

And told her I've been struggling

When it comes to figuring out this thing we call living

And do I really want it?

I feel myself falling apart

I feel my soul plummet

Think I'm afraid to talk to God, 'cause I don't feel nothing

I don't want him to think I'm taking all of this for granted

Well, shit

Maybe I am

Ask me how I feel, I'ma say, "I'm jaded"

Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded?

It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone

I pray to God that my heart don't turn cold

Ask me how I feel, I'ma say, "I'm jaded"

Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded?

It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone

I pray to God that my heart don't turn cold

Conversations with myself, I'm tryna fight all these demons

Tell me what's the point in this, if i'm not seeing the reason

I've been made to feel like I don't give enough

When in the end, it's my heart bleeding

I put my trust in so many that only end up leaving

While the ones who truly love me end up paying for their sins

And I've been lying to myself, I know this ain't the way to live

And I've been reflecting on what I see in my reflection

I'll tell it all right now and give you every confession

So you can

Ask me how I feel, I'ma say, "I'm jaded"

Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded?

It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone

I pray to God that my heart don't turn cold

Ask me how I feel, I'ma say, "I'm jaded"

Look me in my eyes, don't you see me faded?

It's a long road, I'ma walk it alone

I pray to God that my heart don't turn cold