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Credits
PERFORMING ARTISTS
Meshell Ndegeocello
Vocals
Cory Henry
Piano
Joan As Police Woman
Vocals
Chris Bruce
Guitar
COMPOSITION & LYRICS
Samora Pinderhughes
Composer
Jack DeBoe
Composer
Gabe Schnider
Composer
Mike Bono
Composer
PRODUCTION & ENGINEERING
Meshell Ndegeocello
Additional Producer
Josh Johnson
Producer
Abe Rounds
Additional Producer
Chris Bruce
Additional Producer
Hector Castillo
Mixing Engineer
Justin Hicks
Additional Producer
Colin Mohnacs
Assistant Mixing Engineer
Chris Bittner
Recording Engineer
Bob Power
Mastering Engineer
Joe Nino-Hernes
Mastering Engineer
Lyrics
[Verse 1]
I built a castle out of dreams
And pretty scenes
I woke up and it was missing
It wasn't real
It wasn't real
[Verse 2]
I loved a woman who turned out to be
An ideal thing
I woke up and she was different
Oh well (It wasn't real)
It wasn't real
[Chorus]
I been saying things I don't believe
I been doing things that just ain't me
Or is it me?
Been knowing that this can't continue
But I keep on living the same way
[Verse 3]
I dreamt of a future that's so far ahead
I lived the past, and I'd rather pretend
It isn't real
It isn't real
[Verse 4]
A version of self that erases the mirror
So I change my appearance
And go out for dinner with people
That hurt to be noticed, and they talk just alike
And they argue for thrills
It's just never too real
[Chorus]
I been saying things I don't believe
I been doing things that just ain't me
Or is it me?
Been knowing that this can't continue, but I
Keep on living the same way, but you didn't know me then
[Verse 5]
I wasn't nobody's friend
I wanted what all men want
To be in good company
And go around breaking things
And never think about fixing
[Bridge]
Can't let it go now
Won't let it go
I been living the type of life I see in movies
It's unsustainable
I been practicing on a new accent, new stories
Might be more relatable
[Bridge]
How'd I end up with the same damn clothes on?
I thought I was so individual
Went to the East (Make sure you take some pictures)
You know it's all about the visual
Pretty, pretty thing
[Chorus]
I been saying things I don't believe
I been doing things that just ain't me
Or is it me?
Been knowing that this can't continue, but I
Keep on living the same way
[Outro]
I been saying things I don't believe
I've been doing things that just ain't me
Or is it me?
Independence
But I keep on
Living the same way
Written by: Gabe Schnider, Jack DeBoe, Mike Bono, Samora Pinderhughes