Jaded

I've tried burying myself in other mens' arms

And they all have your eyes,

But they're not you and that pisses me off

I'm always angry

My parents hate me

'Cause I never even call

I'm only interested in making time if it's an escape

Glass of wine a cigarette or another online date

Please don't ask me

If i'm okay

Or if i ate today

Bad dream got me in a cold sweat

Ghosts slow dancing deep in my head

Should i get up or go back to bed

Sleep it off again

You take it just to waste it

I knew we wouldn't make it

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded

And if you bought it just to break it

I'm the mess that you created

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded

I can't have your favorite drink it makes me sick

So why do i hold my breath and take another sip

Shaken stirred with a twist is how i reminisce

Forgive and forget the nights that you wrecked

The make up smears and makeup sex

Fuck it im going back to bed

To sleep you off again

You take it just to waste it

Always knew we wouldn't make it

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded

And if you bought it just to break it

I'm the mess that you created

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded

Now I'm feeling like a goddamn psycho

Chasing in slomo

Wonderin' where you go

Tryna catch up to you

Gotta catch up to you

Stuck in a nightmare left on repeat

Running on no sleep

Tell me that you need me

Gotta catch up to you

'Cause baby I'm a dream come true

You take it just to waste it

Always knew we wouldn't make it

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded

And if you bought it just to break it

I'm the mess that you created

I know you loved to fake it

'cause you love leaving me jaded