Chronically Cautious

I gamble big for the smallest part, I know it's not

Enough to change what's been going on, but it's all I've got

I misjudge and switch up from target to target

Miscalculate what it is that I wanted

Swimming in circles in search of substance

In shallow waters that give me nothing

How can optimists be cynical?

So if I'm honest, I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

How can I get off this?

To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

Passionate but fickle

The source of my serotonin is only digital

'Cause my reality's fading, I guess that's typical

Can't switch back, it's mismatched in dopamine

Get whiplash, it hits fast, controlling me

Swerving in silence, I'm all alone

In traffic I'm trapped in, I can't find home

I'm an optimist who's cynical

(That's f-king miserable)

So if I'm honest, I think I'm beginnin' to question how much I want this

Overloaded serial stresser, I'm sitting nauseous

Panic on a loop in my head, I'm chronically cautious

How can I get off this?

To keep it simple, I think I've been willingly following every impulse

Picturing a future, then tossing it out the window

Suffocate the fire I started right when it kindles

Passionate but fickle