Suicide Letter

Sometimes I wonder what it feels like to have a hollow tip go through my brain

I contemplate my life, if I never learned how to rap on these 808’s

Do I have a purpose, is it really worth it?

Been told if I work hard that I’ll earn it

But I learned in my life nothing's certain

That’s why I go so hard in these verses

If I die tonight will I see the light

Take flight with my soul to heaven's gates

Or is that shit fake?

Will I rot away inside of a grave as bugs eat my flesh

As I lay to rest and my bones decay till there’s nothing left

And you wonder why I’m depressed

Like damn, man, death would be better

That’s why I’m writing this suicide letter

So cut the chit-chat tell me something that’s better

'Cause life don’t mean nothing and nothing seems better

I’m done, with everything

Life’s only good when I fucking sleep

Life’s only real when I fucking dream

Life’s only fun when the verse is clean

I’m tired of being a being

Ask how I feel and I’m feeling

Like nothing is real

And I’m dealing with dealing with stress and depression

I’m not even sleeping, I stare at the ceiling

Sealing my emotions inside of my head

Thoughts of being dead

If I get out of bed, I'ma write this note

Call my mom say, that I love you and put this bullet through my head