19 in a Week

Am I supposed to like the things we do?

'Cause every time we touch, I feel confused

It's not like you've not been here before

I thought by now I'd have it sorted

But it's not that easy

I read online somewhere it takes a while

To see the world not just as a child

I'll be nineteen in a week

And never loved a single being

'Cause it's not that easy

And it hurts me

That I might be

Feeling like I'm grown, but I'm still in the backseat

Caught up in a world where I don't understand me

Ah, ah

Trying not to rush, but I'm scared that I'll be stuck in the mud

Now there's dirt on my self-esteem

And now I'm turning in my sheets

'Cause I'll be nineteen in a week

Without the numbers, I'd still be a kid

I dread my birthday every year

I think it's cool I get to share it with my dad

But it's a shame he's not here

Does it hurt you too

That I wasn't born before 2002?

Feeling like I'm grown, but I'm still in the backseat

Caught up in a world where I don't understand me

Ah, ah

Trying not to rush, but I'm scared that I'll be stuck in the mud

Now there's dirt on my self-esteem

And now I'm turning in my sheets

'Cause I'll be nineteen in a week

You say that ageing is a mindset

But I think it's weird you're twenty-five

I guarantee you still go home to your mum

'Cause there's no food in your fridge to survive