white lies

Lines are growing thin

I'm no longer sleeping in

The shirt you met me in

I don't know if we don't talk

Because I'm in the city

Pretending that I'm busy

Meant to come back home yesterday

But I delayed the train to stay alone

Still went to the station

To imagine you in Euston

Smiling like you used to

And who knows what I'd say

If you were real today

Sometimes I tell white lies

Like, "I will always want you

No matter the rocks above you"

And yes, sometimes I tell white lies

Like, "I don't wanna leave you

I don't want a life without you"

But the truth is, maybe

I do time to time

Picture someone giving me

The version of my life

I imagined first with you

So long before you lost us

God knows that we lost us

And who knows what that would've looked like

A world where you didn't keep changing your mind?

And sometimes I tell white lies

Like, "I will always want you

No matter the rocks above you"

Oh, sometimes I tell white lies

Like, "I'm gonna up and leave you

And I want a life without you"

But the truth is, maybe

I don't