FLUTTER

What once felt temporary

Now feels permanent

I guess my habits

Have become me

The days they turn

To months then years

And looking back

Had I dealt with them

Where would I be?

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Am I under attack

What’s the deal?

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Everything’s a red flag

Just wanna heal

Leaving here as two

Or am I

Leaving here with you

He says that my past

Is causing us to drag

Well I can’t argue that

It isn’t real

Subtle as an army

Sneaking through the back

A whisper to retract

An ocean of tears

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Am I under attack

What’s the deal?

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Just trying to understand

What is real

Leaving here as two

Or am I

Leaving here with you

Fight or flight, butterfly

Undercut or hit the sky

I just wanna call you mine

But if I stay

I might die

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Am I under attack

What’s the deal?

I’m good at this

But I’m so bad at that

Just trying to understand

What is real