Lucky Cigarette

I was 21

I was living in the sun

Among the wreckage of my dreams

I couldn't find someone

I was so afraid

And then I met you

You're the one that showed me

How to bloom

So this is 22

Why do I still feel so grey

Cause life has been cut short

Why do I stay here

Why do I still try and live

Why am I still here

I am frozen mud

I don't wanna fix my head

I'm just bad at being happy

I am fucking happy (I am not fucking happy)

Lucky cigarette

Things that I'll never forget

To think that I used to not know

How to smoke

Can we get out of here

Find some other place

Where the dark dreams of home are gone

I was feeling you

I was hoping you could feel it too

I was fucking you

I was hoping you were fucking me too

So much can change in just a year

I don't wanna be here

My house is haunted

By the monsters

That I make you all

I am so afraid of you

I am so afraid of you