I Hate Myself

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place I wish I could have a mental breakdown Without turning my life into a ghost town So many things I would change But more than anything I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened as much as I go through hell For every time I've thought of ending it all, wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made-up friends I wish I could be honest about the ugly Without every single person runnin' from me These days, it's hard to have faith And more than anything I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened as much as I go through hell For every time I've thought of ending it all, wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself The floods I feel, this storm could kill I'm better off to keep it damned 'Cause the more I speak, the more I see Just how alone I really am I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself I wish somebody listened as much as I go through hell For every time I've thought of ending it all, wish somebody had felt what I felt I wish somebody loved me as much as I hate myself